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Well many things have happened since posting last. First of all, Kris and I were fired from Dunkin' Donuts on the same day! Kris was off the clock and just asked a question, while I told the manager, Melissa, to get over it when I made a mistake punching in an order at drive-thru! How idiotic!!! I know that Melissa has been wanting to get rid of me, just waiting for an excuse, but I NEVER thought that she would go that far and accuse me of doing something that I didn't do, which is SO out of my character! She accused me of calling her a C U Next Tuesday!!! I was flabbergasted! I vowed to her on my priest robes that I did no such thing, but she didn't care. Harriet was even in on it because she wanted her Senior Shift Leader title back.

So now we're fighting it, the non due process that we feel we should've gotten. I find this whole situation so bogus. Melissa, in all her insecurities, especially with me being highly educated and articulate, is so freaking immature and shouldn't be a manager of anything. It's just so frustrating.

My ritual for Mystic Circle went really well. I read part of what I wanted to say occasionally, but didn't rely on the script totally. Everyone liked it, which I'm thankful for.

*sighs* Oh well. I'm here at Barnes & Noble in Clay on Route 31 waiting for our CNY PPD meeting at 3pm. Just got to love planning meetings! It's going to be quite difficult without Teresa here. How I miss her so!

Baduktai T'Caem

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It's been quite awhile since I posted. I've just been working a lot, getting ready for the first ritual that I'm in charge of for Mystic Circle this Ostara, and reading.

I really wish that I could find myself. I know who I am but I'm not really sure where I want to be, or what I want to do. I know that I miss performing, I miss focusing on my music and composing, miss working with professional musicians. I feel that I still want to go for nursing and become an RN but I'm not sure how to go about it. I still owe NYS money. The system sucks! It keeps you trapped, no matter how much potential you have, yet it gives to foreigners free education and money all in the name of diplomacy! BAH!

I'm just so frustrated with my life. I know that I am responsible for it turning out this way, but I'm not sure which choices or avenues to help correct it. So I'm stuck, stuck in this hole, and just when I climb my way almost out, something comes along and kicks me back down. This has been going on for quite a long time, and to be honest, I'm getting tired from it all.

But I still keep looking upwards, towards a better vision. What else can I do?